Saturday, January 9, 2010

I am CrossFit Benchmark

I am trying to stay positive about today. But it's hard to be upbeat when I couldn't do the pull ups, I couldn't do the hang cleans and I could hardly run. Why? It was cold, it was early, sure there are excuses but that doesn't really explain it.

It's a hard task mentally to come back from not finishing a wod. Since I only got through one and a half rounds of the IAC benchmark, it's even harder to think that I hardly got through HALF of the workout when so many around me finished. Yes, I was doing unassisted pull ups when others had bands but still, I should have been able to get my chin over that bar. And I didn't.

I feel like my head is in the right spot - I signed up for the 95# bar to do Level 1 and really expected my body to be able to do unassisted pull ups and 95# hang cleans. But my fitness is not where my mind wants it to be. I have the bar set high for myself and I'm not quite reaching what I think I can do.

The good news is that I have the rest of my life but specifically the next 8 weeks to change this. If I eat clean and do the recommended workouts for the next 8 weeks I have the opportunity to change my life. So I'm in this. I'm going to put everything I can into this challenge because I know how frustrated I am now with not being able to do what I want to. If this is my low, then it is only up from here!